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A Letter to My Apple:

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

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My Sweet Apple:

It’s funny to be writing you like this… In many ways, at many moments of the day, the reality of you escapes me, and I forget that you are, indeed, blooming and growing and becoming the baby I will hold in six short months. It’s different this time—with your big brother occupying most of my daytime thoughts and efforts, and the sheer exhaustion of creating you occupying the rest of the hours of the day--- I have less time to sit and dream of you like I did with him, and sometimes I have to remind myself of the magic that is happening within me at every moment of my life right now.

But still, when I take the time to pause, I can feel you there… A wee little apple deep within me, working at least as hard as I am to CREATE yourself. 16 weeks. Amazing how in a mere 16 weeks, you have grown from something so small the eye can’t detect it, to this incredible, miraculous little one I might be able to hold in the palm of my hand. The weekly updates from the baby websites designate a fruit or vegetable for your current size, and that charms me. One week you might be a bean, the next week a cherry tomato… And eventually you’ll be a coconut, then a pineapple,, then a cantaloupe… And in the blink of an eye, you’ll be REAL. In my arms.

I have longed for you for the longest time. Since before I knew your father… since the time I felt my purpose must be to bring children into this world and raise them as dearly as my own parents raised me. If it be my destiny to have children, I was ready. But it’s funny how that yearning grows so much more intense once you’ve had one already.. then are made to wait and wait and wait for the next one. Watching your brother, Noah, grow, amazing us with every new day, it seemed we’d never get to share a sibling with him. And the joy he brings us—such a powerful joy. It can only get better with the addition of you.

My sweet apple--- I am so excited for you. Excited to feel the first movements of your kicks and bumps within me, excited to see your profile on the ultrasound in a few short weeks. Excited to begin making a quilt for you, to begin collecting treasures for you. I am excited to see your brother learn to include you in his world. I am excited to see who you are, and who you’ll become.

You are a gift. I cherish you and I cannot wait to be your mama. I won’t be perfect… I will lose my patience and feed you easy, less-healthy food sometimes.. I will disappoint you sometimes, probably… But I promise you--- I LIVE to be your mama. I LIVE to make our home a haven of peace and knowledge and music and beauty and creativity. I am honored to be given the stewardship of your young life, to help you become someone this world needs.

Welcome to our family, sweet one. This is just the beginning. Things will get even more incredible come April. I can’t wait.

I love you.

Mama

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So yes... It's time to officially tell the world-- we are pregnant, and having a sweet little one due April 11. Sixteen weeks, and everything has been really, really good.  It really IS harder to grasp onto this reality this time--- life keeps taking over and I keep thinking I should have the energy and strength of my old self... Until this whole thing knocks me off my feet every evening and I barely stay upright through my worktime and late bedtime.

I'm trying to be in the PRESENT, and love every day... Yet this crazy fall photo season threatens to take that from me all the time. It's been a bit nutty. But things should slow down very very soon, and I cannot wait to begin to settle in for a winter of comfort, family, and incubating this little one to full term.

And the apple theme? Well, when I began this letter last week, this little babe was "about the size of an apple"... But now, at week 16, they're telling me "avocado", and that's just not as cute. So you get an apple.

And the boys were cool with being a part of this fun, too, so we'll end with them:

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33 comments:

  1. First of all April 11th is the best day to have a baby! Its my birthday and every 11 years it lands on EASTER! Cool huh?

    Congrats! I am so happy for you and Melanie.

    I just beat you guys by a 2 months! :) Go 2011 babies!

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  2. SMILE. :)

    And, Itty Bitty Wittes... I'm totally weirded out. MY birthday is also April 11th and I ALWAYS tell people that Easter comes around every 11 years! Are we twins? ;)

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  3. That is so wonderful. So many heartfelt congratulations to you, my friend!

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  4. Congrats Emily! I'm SO excited for you!!! I know you've wanted this baby for so long and I am beaming tonight just thinking about he/she growing inside of you! What a blessing!

    Would the gift of a newborn session be a good congrats gift? :) I'm yours if you want me (bringing Kim with me of course! ha!)

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  5. We have to be! :) Hahaha 1982?

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  6. Em, you already know how happy I am for you and how lucky this little one is going to be with you as his/her mamma, Noah as his/her big Brother and Joe as his/her daddy. This little one could NOT have picked a better family. I can't wait to meet your little Apple....(just pleast don't name it Apple...no matter how cool some people think that name is...) :)

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  7. Awwwww, that's just wonderful! Congratulations.

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  8. Congratulations, Emily! Having two children is a completely different world than just one, but it is such a wonderful thing. And nothing at all compares to watching your older child play with and care for a younger sibling.

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  9. YAY! Congrats! I know how much this means to you! I am so happy for you guys and I can't wait to see this new little bundle <3

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  10. YAY FOR YOU THREE!!!!!

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  11. Ugh! I am so happy for you and have waited for this post. Is that strange because you don't know me? Perhaps.

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  12. So beyond happy for you - and Joe, and Noah. But most of all for this little one - they get the gift of being born into the love you have created for your family.

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  13. Congratulations!! So happy for you guys! Can't wait to see your little one. Best wishes!

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  14. I knew I would love this entry, but the tears that sprang to my eyes surprised me.

    I love you so dearly.

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  15. I am so thrilled for you!!! Congratulations!!!

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  16. AMAZING! Wonderful! Congrats! I had a feeling this news was right around the corner. So happy for you. Can't wait to hear what you are having! xoxoxo

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  17. yay :) Beautiful photos, as always. I can't believe you're 16 weeks already!!!

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  18. This post brings me such joy...I love your letter to Baby Apple...you are one AWESOME mama!!!

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  19. Oh Emily! I am so very happy for you. All of you. I know how scary that first trimester can be. So glad you're past that now! Congratulations! Another precious baby. Such a blessing and a joy! I, too, have always liked those food comparisons! So cute...and tangible...and edible. Just like babies. ;)

    Love y'all!

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  20. WOOHOO!! Congratz on Baby Apple! :) That is going to be the cutest apple ever - your family is so beautiful! Hope I'll be able to join the 2011 ranks as well - we'll know by Dustin's birthday if this cycle was successful or not!

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  21. Oh Congratulations Emily!! I'm so happy for you and your whole family. Noah will make such a wonderful big brother :) Awesome Awesome!

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  22. OMG! Happy happy news! Congrats!

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  23. Fantastic way to announce! Congratulations!!

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  24. I've never been so excited to see an apple!

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  25. Beautiful post and a huge congratulations!!

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  26. I am so very happy for you Emily! :) You have a wonderful family and its only going to get better with the addition of a new member! I LOVED your apple letter and pictures - I agree, much cuter than a avocado! haha

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  27. Oh Emily, this news just makes me so happy for you, Joe & Noah. Congratulations! What a unique and creative way to tell the world...I love it :)

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  28. Emily- your letter had me in happy tears!!! The joy I have for you is overwhelming! I am so excited for your family, and the arrival of this precious gift!!

    You are an incredible mom, and this little one is so lucky to have you and Joe as parents!

    Praying you have a happpy and healthy pregnancy!! Love you!!!

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  29. Emily! Huge congrats!! Hope you are feeling good!

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  30. Wahoo! That's so wonderful! Congratulations my dear friend. I have not had a chance to call you back yet but I love that you thought to call me. Paul went to San Fran for 5 days and took our only cell phone charger. What a change of pace that was to have no phone for almost a week! I am just so happy for you! I can't wait to hear if it's a boy or girl!
    Love you!

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  31. Oooh!! Congratulations, Emily! I am so excited for you! Hope you continue to have a good, healthy pregnancy. I remember thinking with my second pregnancy that it was a bit harder than the first, if only because I had a toddler to keep up with. But it was still so exciting! Will be watching to see if you're having a boy or girl. So fun!

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  32. So exciting! A growing family. A new baby. So very sweet. :) Congrats! ;)

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  33. The pictures of Noah with the apple may just be the cutest thing I've ever seen! What a beautifully written post! So touching!

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